And trust me, I'm trying with all my heart to believe you.
But I'm not counting on anything.

Puerto Rico in Four Days

And I just really need this. I want to be on an island without real connection to the outside world and just have me time. So much to think about and all I can say is that I just really need this trip now.

Little Mix - Little Me

Martin Garrix & Jay Hardway - Wizard (Radio Edit)

Tattoo Idea

So, I doubt I'll actually ever get a second tattoo. But if I had to, it'd have something to do with relying on yourself. One of the things that I had to learn the hard way as of recently is that sometimes the people you most count on and the people you most cherish can't always be there in the way you'd like them to be. Maybe it's not so much about them letting you down but more about you, yourself, having too high of expectations. I've learned that sometimes a true sacrifice is to lower expectations. That may sound horrible but compromise is all about that. Relationships…all kinds of relationships…are about compromise and about settling. Sometimes, when you allow yourself to have high expectations, those expectations are actually met. But what I've realized is for me to actually be strong and happy, I have to lower expectations to truly move on.

So one day, if I feel as though I actually have the courage to get a second tattoo, I think that it would revolve around relying on yourself because that's all I gotta do to make it through.

Dear Someone,

Yesterday I was watching this video with my friend and it was essentially about these artists who draw on the grounds of streets. The drawings are optical illusions, meant to look 3D but they aren't. As we were watching it, both of us were mesmerized in the same way; what are we doing here watching this when we could be doing this? I don't mean literally…but more in the sense of like, when will we actually be given the chance to do something great? Lately, academics and responsibilities are all that has been on my mind. Don't get me wrong, I love this new stage in my life. Yet, sometimes I can't help but feel as though sometimes they are actually an obstacle. See, academia actually sets goals for you. You study for four years and you reach the goal of getting your Bachelors. And that's that. But what goals do we have for ourselves? And when will we actually have the time to reach those goals to the fullest potential? When will I stop being a part time student, part time dream reacher? When will I start concentrating on my dreams entirely?

No matter what you say or what you or what you do
When I'm alone, I'd rather be with you
Fuck these other niggas
I'll be right by your side till 3005, hold up

To the next four months

"These next four months are going to be amazing and just wait and see when we come back in may we'll be stronger than ever."

Miss this Trip!

"So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it. With all your heart."

Been writing been writing been writing!

So, I watch this show called One Tree Hill. And every year I make it a habit to at least watch some episodes of it just because I actually really believe its an inspiring show. Anyways, one of the main bases of the show is music. I have no idea why they chose this theme but every single episode is named after some kind of album, song, or lyric. The producers and directors must be music freaks or something. In the show, there is literally a music record label. It was actually my inspiration once for wanting to open up my own label one day. At some point or another, we see each character take some kind of music route. One Tree Hill was my main source of fire--or drive-- for starting up music again last semester just because it was nice to actually listen to so many genres of music. The show is known for taking low-key artists and blowing them up into huge things such as Gavin DeGraw, Jana Kramer, Kate Vogele, and Bethany Joy-Lenz. This is the show that made me discover my now favorite band: City and Color. But one of the great things about One Tree Hill is that it shows the artists before they were famous; we get to see the rawest of rawest songs that they sing. 

So yeah, whatever my songs become…whatever my album turns out to be…I have all those artists that chose to give One Tree Hill a chance and put their music on the show to thank. If it weren't for those artists, I probably wouldn't have the inspiration that I have today. 

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