uugh..

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fuuuuuuuccccccck.

All about the mindset

I'm so happy at McGill University, I can't even begin to explain. I really feel like I found a place where I can be social and independent at the same time. It feels good to be able to be at a place where I feel so comfortable. Having a great fucking time.

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uuuuughh...





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VICETONE TICKET BOUGHT!!

I'm so fucking excited. Such a good way to enter McGill. 

To be or not to be

You never know what to do in these situations. There is absolutely no way to go about these situations. There is no way to feel about these situations. There's nothing to like about these situations. There are so many things that you have to take into account for and regardless of what you want, what you need is more forceful. And sometimes, I can picture everything perfectly. I can see how easy it can be and I forgot about all the bad things. All that has happened can't just remain in the past, can it? It needs to remain vivid...it's so hard to just store everything away. How can I just store it all away?

To Claire, From Sonny

Proximity (2)

1:15
3:00

Proximity

Nikhil Pillay showed me this channel. THAAANKYOU.

Regret

I honestly can't get this one thing out of my head. I know it's going to haunt me for a long time. Feeling so guilty and so terrible holy shit....

McGill

So it's 15 days until college now. I have two weeks now. Two weeks in this city, two weeks with my friends, two weeks with my boyfriend, two weeks to essentially make everything count. I don't really know what to do in these last two weeks. I guess, like Luca said yesterday, "make the best of it." From now on, everything is going to be very real. Nothing is going to be easy anymore. Everything will be about independency. And although independency looks very appealing right now, I've gotten a little taste of that in the last two weeks and all I have to say is that it is a struggle. I'm excited though. I get to be around new people, not that I don't adore the people I'm around now. But it is always a very exciting thing to know that you'll be able to share memories and every lesson you've learned in the past 18 years with people who don't know you at all.

Trust your gut. 

El no siempre esta ahi, lo que tu buscas es el si.

Youth - Daughter

So I posted this a long time ago but it actually suits this day so perfectly. Today is a fucking good day. And I can say that because everything feels like it's changing and I feel like I haven't had this in way too long. I got a babysitting job. Got my errands and chores done. Seeing my best friend. Listening to great music. Everything is actually back to normal. So much opportunity ahead and I can finally see it all more clearly now. I will never forget a conversation that I had yesterday. It actually hit me like a brick wall. So grateful for everyone around me; I am surrounded by some fucking great people. 

• Shiraz Biran
• Anya Urcuyo
• Lauren Gurland
• Matteo Cangiano
• Marco Mosca

Thanks for getting me through shit even when you don't realize you're doing it. <3>

Samick

So my piano is officially out of my house. Currently, it's sitting in my uncle's apartment. It has stickers on the middle C and its surrounding keys. The twins are learning to play while Abdiel and Israel watch. I'm going to miss that piano but out of everyone, I am so happy that this family got my piano because I know that they'll put the instrument to good use and fall in love with it like I did. And I guess that at this point, actually...specifically today, I'm starting to accept all these changes.

I just really want to get out of here.
Run awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Nothing is helping anymore.

Head up, Chin Up

Praying for a turn of events