It's All Good

I guess it's about being completely vulnerable. And being okay with it. And knowing that because of this vulnerability, there will be a lot of pit falls and lots of failed-to-be-met expectations. You just need to know that it's worth it in the end. You just need to know that those expectations are nothing but that--expectations. You should never be led by high expectations because the problem is that when they are not met, they crush you. And I now know that that was my problem. And I'm okay with that. I guess it's hard to admit that you never really stop learning. It's a never-ending process and there's no way to really know if you've ever progressed or reached the end of something. It's impossible to know what the best of the best is. And that's when everything goes to shit. That's when you can't stop thinking about how it could be better...can't ever stop wishing for what you can't have at the moment. And then the impatience gets overwhelming...and at some point nothing is really good enough for you anymore. And this is all just because the expectations have not been met. Now, I'll look back and know that I did the best that I could've done and if I had to go back and change something, I wouldn't at all. Because if I am always thinking about how I can change something, then it will never do that exactly: change. So I guess I am admitting that I fucked up a beautiful thing...something that could've blossomed into something amazing in the right time. And I'm finally okay with that. I'm okay with the fact that no matter how hard I tried, maybe it just wasn't enough in the moment. But one day it will be. And I hope for the best. I hope with all my heart that I've learned.

It's just such a relieving feeling...knowing that I can now look back and know that I did everything that I could've done...that I fought when I should've...that I was happy when I should've been. And that's a truly amazing feeling. Only instills wonder and optimism for the future.

Osheaga, missing you

Tove Lo - Stay High (Habits Remix) ft. Hippie Sabotage

Stay high all the time to keep you off my mind

So recently I've really been thinking about what I want to make out of these next three years academically. The good news is that I've finally decided on a career that I truly look forward to. Initially, I thought I would be going down the traditional path of a psycholology major, open up my own practice and provide therapy. But lately, I was listening to someone talk about how their psychologist had completely ruined their day...had made them feel insufficient. I thought about and I realized that I didn't want to be that person. I didn't want to be the person who could make another person feel small. And although I know that I will always mean well, I know that it can be easy to judge. So, I've decided on taking on Life Coaching. Too excited for this. :)

My beautiful brother

Hm. I'm going to write about this again in my blog just because I've become frustrated with it lately. People should really stop tearing others down without knowing what is going on in their lives. You cannot formulate an opinion on something if you really don't know all the factors to it. It really pains me to see (and experience) someone being bold enough to say or do something without knowing how it will affect the other person. It's really stupid and naïve.

Rant over !