Sometimes you have to do something radical to make it all stop.
Even if it means going against what you want.

Voices

So lately I've been emailing my roommate as she is in Malaysia with her family and the time difference takes a toll on the communication. It's amazing what the power of an email can have on the way that you arrange your thoughts and think back through things.

My lesson of the year is the following: Don't let voices drown you out. I say this because I found myself listening to too many people at once this year. I found myself influenced by too many voices. Too many opinions. I love having people around me. I'm a social person. I love advice. I love talking. I study psychology for a reason. But I think that there comes a point where it starts becoming difficult to make your own decisions when you start listening to too many others. I don't mean we should all become selfish. There's no need to say fuck it. But every now and then it's okay to let loose and enjoy your own mind, your own love, your own dreams, your own passions. Take that fire and apply it. Don't let it get sizzled out by other people. And most of all, don't let those opinions become so engrained in you that you start believing they're your own.

People's advice are exactly that -- people's advice. It is their own advice. It comes from their experiences, their traumas, their moments of lust, of anger, of drive. Make your own. Come up with your own voice. And listen to it. Because there's nothing more amazing than looking back and knowing that it was you who made this all happen.

Wafia - Heartburn

Warning Sign

A warning sign
I missed the good part, then I realized
I started looking at the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in
I've gotta tell you the state I'm in
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah that truth is, that I miss you so

'The Invisible Discriminator' - Stop. Think. Respect.

But...now
What I'm doing
Don't know
What I'm doing

Cause I don't even feel it
Body's growing colder with the distance now
And I don't even mean it
Got my hands all over you but not a sound

I'm always so in love
All in
Till I start going numb thinking
Thought you'd make me feel it
Thought I'd be different this time around
This time around

We started out as lonely hearts
We started with a promise built on highs
You said I was the missing part
Looked into my eyes said
You're my fix for life, but now

What I'm doing
Don't know
What I'm doing