Competition

So one of the ugliest thing that someone can have as a personality trait is competitiveness. Don't get me wrong, I think that a certain degree of competition is great especially if it keeps you motivated and inspired. However, when it starts to become something that is engraved in your personality, something that you can't separate yourself from, and something that interferes with most aspects of your world, that is when I find it to be incredibly ugly. I think that competition can turn a person that is admirable into one that is entirely detestable. You see, competition is all about the ego. When a person cannot place their ego aside, and must always satisfy its needs, that is when it truly becomes a disease. If it weren't for the competition at McGill, then I don't think that I would stay motivated to do better every day. However, lately it has become something that I can't entirely understand. I was reading the other day that to maintain a stable relationship (platonic as well), positive competition is healthy. I completely agree with that. My best friends and I are always keeping each other in check, looking to out-do ourselves. My boyfriend and I have discrete goals that we're always striving towards. And I appreciate these aspects of my life every day. I think that it is completely worth it to have a little competition if it means creating a better and healthier life for not only yourself but for those around you as well. But competition is ugly when taken out of hand. I hope that I never become a person that is driven by it. I hope to be motivated by it. I hope to never become dependent on it...that it never becomes the upper hand.